
But then I had continued to lie there and had not answered. I sank down and they went on laughing, thinking that was part of it. And at last I knelt before them, as no human being ever knelt I knelt, and lifted up my hands and implored them: "Take me out, if you still can, and keep me", but they did not hear I had no longer any voice. I wept, but the mask did not let the tears escape they ran down inside over my cheeks and dried at once and ran again and dried. They stood there and laughed my God, they could stand there and laugh. They did not spring forward to the rescue their cruelty knows no bounds. For one second I had an indescribable, painful and futile longing for myself, then there was only he: there was nothing but he. But at the very moment I thought this, the worst befell: I lost all sense, I simply ceased to exist. I stared at this great, terrifying unknown before me, and it seemed to me appalling to be alone with him. While I strove in boundlessly increasing anguish to squeeze somehow out of my disguise, it forced me, by what means I do not know, to lift my eyes and imposed on me an image, no, a reality, a strange, unbelievable and monstrous reality, with which, against my will, I became permeated: for now the mirror was the stronger, and I was the mirror. But for this the mirror had just been waiting. Succinct and informative notes identify references and elucidate allusions, drawing parallels with other works by Rilke where appropriate, including his poetry.“I rushed to the mirror and with difficulty watched through the mask the working of my hands.The text includes an alternative version of the ending rarely found in translations of the work. The edition includes an authoritative introduction that helps to guide the reader through the narrative, draws biographical parallels and offers suggestions for interpretation.The story of Malte takes on representative status in an archetypal confrontation with the modern that is both intense and intriguingly unfocused.A new translation of Rilke's only novel, a canonical work of modernist prose that reflects the poet's own sense of alienation and transcends conventional narrative to achieve an intense exploration of.A radical departure from literary realism, it is an archetypal confrontation with the modern. A landmark in the development of the twentieth-century novel, the Notebooks is the story of a young Danish aristocrat, told in a series of notes that explore Malte's life in Paris, childhood memories and reflections in highly crafted poetic prose.
